Takima Not Tamika

After I thank God for allowing me to see another day, it gets dark.

Anxiety starts to take me over.

I have an attitude, I search for the source of my discomfort but I can’t find it.

I call a few people to talk about it, maybe they can locate the problem, but they can’t.

Anxiety turns into stress and I get a headache, now I can’t think. Then anger moves into my chest and I can’t breathe.

Where am I? I’m in between unhappiness and misery, they can’t tell cause I’m smiling.

Whats the problem? I’m not certain, but I felt this way yesterday.

Nothing seems right, but that’s impossible. I’m here right?

Well barely.

Barely thinking, breathing, hardly moving.

Internally over-reacting to these inconvenient, uncomfortable circumstances.

At the boiling point screaming…..I hate it here.

Hate it where? Here!!!

Unbalanced, Unfulfilled, Uncertain, Unable and Unbelievably Under-Represented by Unbelievable Uselessness.

That’s it! Anxiety, I’ll see you tomorrow, same place, same time.

On Sat., October 1, 2011 I had the pleasure of working with phenomenal women. Tasha Monique and Jeannie Ferguson of BGU, Katrina Lawson of Klaw Media Group, Mingle Models, Divine (TLFJ) and volunteers made Fashion and Fantasy Launch party event for Traci Lynn Fashion Jewelry a success!

The event was held at the Skylight Art Gallery located at Bedford-Stuyvesant Restoration Corporation. The gallery, currently showing Crown Heights Gold, an exhibit that reflects the race riot in Crown Heights of 1991. Black and Gold was a beautiful backdrop. As it reflected diversity in race relations, we represented combination’s of fashion, jewelry and entrepreneurship. Klaw Media Group provided a beautiful reception area with wine, cheese, fruit and cake pops provided by Please Palate. Divine Islam, my business partner drove up from Philadelphia, and BGU provided beautiful dresses and Mingle Models.

Thank you to all of my family, friends and supporters who made my business launch a smash hit!

I am pleased with the outcome. We all worked well together and I look forward to working with all of the entrepreneurs in the near future.

We are planning monthly Fashion and Fantasy functions.

For more info contact

TakimaDarnell@Gmail.com

www.TraciLynnJewelry.net/TakimaDarnell

www.BigGirlsUnited.com

Facebook: Klaw Media Group

I had to take a getaway to rejuvenate. I went to Philly and got the best rest I’ve had in weeks. I’ve learned that when I am a bit uncomfortable, I need to make a move. It starts to feel like I’m confined. 

Other than that I really don’t have anything to say right now.

My mind has been over whelmed with stuff. I’ve read that its a reflection of your environment. I believe it too. When I can’t get clarity I gt to cleaning, and the time has come to do it again. Only this time getting rid of quantity. What is all this stuff?

When I drove to Houston in March, my car was packed to the brim. I thought I had decreased my items down to a few desirable pieces of clothing, footwear, documents, memorabilia, etc. Well the etc is what must be identified, cause when the Gypsy calls me again, I don’t wanna lug this stuff around and up and down. I want this stuff down to a three duffle bag and one box minimum. When I rock and roll, I don’t believe in leaving stuff here and there and coming back for it…PAUSE. Its bad enough that I have one storage unit I don’t want another.

This desire to release is coming from an internal need to move beyond my current space, evolve as a woman and acquire what defines me now. Some of these things have been with me since my teens and early twenties. A few items I got and never used and probably never will.

I have a birthday coming up in three and a half months and I want to be prepared to receive with open arms what God has in mind for me. So let the count down begin! Out with the old and in with the new!

If you are considering doing the same thing, I recommend starting with the book:

Clear your Clutter with Feng Shui -Karen Kingston

I have class work to do. It’s due on Friday and I haven’t done a thing. Why? Cause I procrastinate with shit I really don’t wanna do. I’d rather be eating Bon Bons flicking the channels and surfing Facebook. That’s real talk! But I also have a goal in mind, and that is to be apart of the CUNY (or somebody’s) graduating class of 2014. I’ve been in school long enough. I don’t love school and wish that I had completed it before 25 years old like my sister. So why do I procrastinate?

I think its cause I’m old. No, it’s gotta be because I’m not studying something I really like! No!!! I got it! Its because I’m too damn smart for school. Whatever the thought is, its not gonna matter come Friday morning when I have work to turn in and a quiz to take. See I’ve done this college thing before, and I’ve turned in my best work staying up all the night before to rush it to the Professor. LOL

I think at the root of procrastination for me, is a lack of passion for the work that I’m doing. So why am I in college? I think of it as a living will, a passport to the future….blah blah blah.

At the end of the day if I don’t get my shit together I’m gonna fail!! And failure is not an option. SO I’m gonna get my ass to this book and get it cracking. LOL

Note to Self: No more Facebook til the work is complete